Right now, I am in love with a woman who has been here for me through thick and thin. She has inspired me to never give up on any of my dreams and encouraged my growth, whether spiritually or emotionally. Weight gain, weight loss, weight gain, weight loss means nothing to our relationship. She is beautiful, talented and a wonderful, trusted friend. Who is she? Why me, of course!!!
Years ago, I couldn't stand my own reflection. I cringed whenever I heard the sound of my own voice. I placed more value on my clothes, money and physical possessions than my own life. I battled the three demons of alcohol, sex and drugs. Yet, I am still here...still standing tall at the age of 33.
I meet a number of people today who call me inspirational. At first, I was flattered by the compliment but thought nothing of it. A few days ago, I stopped and truly reflected on how often I hear those words and what they really mean. I took stock of my life and cried tears of joy. My goodness, I am a woman who should have been dead years ago by my own hands.
I know what it feels like to have a mother who does not love me. My father was a crack cocaine addict. I have been physically, emotionally and sexually abused and scarred by the experiences. I have also wanted to die and tried to kill myself. At the end of the day, I am still here.
I am also the first person in my family to go to college. Then law school. I have been kicked out of Georgetown University Law Center and later had a nervous breakdown. Now, I am an attorney, entrepreneur, teacher and motivational speaker. I speak truth and am authentically Precious at all times.
Who knew that the woman I am today would have come from so low on the totem pole? Not me. But by the Grace of GOD, I am have lived to tell the tale. That is why I can encourage others to see beyond, as Joel Osteen always says, "the natural." Within each of us is the supernatural. We can all overcome any and all obstacles. I wouldn't say that it is easy but challenges are meant to be overcome.
Am I inspirational? Yes, but not for all these reasons. I believe my life is inspirational because my heart wouldn't let me give up on life completely. I love myself for every battle scar I have that reminds me of where I have come from. I acknowledge every experience I have had from having my heart broken twice, to gaining 120 pounds in 1 year, to being forced to see that the life I wanted was within my grasp.
In the end, it goes back to never look back and never think twice. You have the power to fall in love with yourself too. That curvy girl in the mirror needs your love and support today. Your heart and experiences can impact generations.
Keep moving forward...ALWAYS. GO BIG OR GO HOME!!!
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